Diary of an anxious soul and how pole dancing saved me an autoethnography

Þórhallsdóttir, Sveindís. (2017). Diary of an anxious soul and how pole dancing saved me: An autoethnography. Master’s thesis in sport and exercise psychology. Faculty of Sport Sciences. University of Jyväskylä. 150p. In this thesis, I use narrative reflection from an evocative autoethnographic s...

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Main Author: Vilborgardóttir Þórhallsdóttir, Sveindís
Other Authors: Liikuntatieteellinen tiedekunta, Faculty of Sport and Health Sciences, Sport and Health Sciences, Liikunta- ja terveystieteet, University of Jyväskylä, Jyväskylän yliopisto
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Published: 2017
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title_full Diary of an anxious soul and how pole dancing saved me : an autoethnography
title_fullStr Diary of an anxious soul and how pole dancing saved me : an autoethnography Diary of an anxious soul and how pole dancing saved me : an autoethnography
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